so I find myself in a hotel room, on my own, in London. Whilst this might seem exciting for the girl from Yorkshire, actually all I want is my own bed, my familiar surroundings, my husband and my son. I feel that we are conditioned to think that the bright lights of the city is something to strive for…. But why? Does being a rural person make you any less of a person?
I love my country walks and runs. I hate the tube and the sheer quantity of people in London. I love open space and solitude. Here there is no silence. Is it a bad thing to feel like this?
I’m trying to make plans for the new year, although it would seem that my employment is slightly precarious. We want to have fun, have enough money to give us the freedom to do the things we want to do. To enjoy life. To feel alive.
This week brought the news that a family member needs more aggressive treatment against cancer. It won’t cure them, but it will hopefully prolong a good quality of life. This brings home to me what is important and what really isn’t. Those petty squabbles in an office…. Have you really nothing better to do with your time?
And what do I want to do? I want to run, I want to feel alive, out in nature, on the trails. Instead of being stuck in a world of concrete.
How do you work out this balance? Is the trick finding a job that you absolutely love, so that it isn’t a chore going to work everyday?
I’m aware that this post is sounding very negative and that wasn’t my intention. I’m very grateful for the opportunities being afforded to me at the moment. I find myself married to an amazing man- wondering what I did to deserve this very welcome person in my life. A man that shares my love of running, of peace, of nature, of life. I have relative good health, am physically able to run.
Last weekend, despite the ice and snow we headed out for a trail run. Me, my husband and my teenage son. I LOVE the fact that we can all go out together. 7.5 miles later we were back in the car and headed home to hot chocolate and hot toast. I can’t think of a better way to spend a Sunday morning!
Have you sorted your plans for Christmas? We’ve made the decision early on to host this year… but on our terms. Which means that we have invited people, but it will be late lunch, which means we will be able to go to parkrun first 🙂 We don’t have little kids, so having something else to focus on on Christmas day is a pleasant respite from food, drink and presents!
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